I have moaned and groaned about not being able to work. It is definitely an adjustment becoming a stay-at-home mom again, especially when the choice was made for you instead of by you. But lately, God has been reminding me that it is what you choose to do with your time, however it is given, that truly matters. Instead of whining about what I should or could be doing, I should take the time I’m given and use it the best way that I can.
I believe God is using this time to teach me to slow down, and to enjoy the little moments. I have always been the overachiever. All about time management and being productive. In reality, I was just running away from fears and doubts. It’s hard for God to find you when you are going full speed ahead, all the while complaining about how busy you are and all that has to get done. Yet, we allow ourselves to be so busy we forget to make time to spend with our creator. We are so busy living and complaining about being busy that God ends up on the bottom of our to-do-list, or not on it at all.
After the wreck, everything came into such clear perception in my life. Nothing mattered in that moment except that my children live. Every fear I had ever had became nothing in comparison. I wanted the moments back where my kids got on my ever living nerves. Y’all know what I’m talking about! I wanted to see a dirty bedroom. I wanted to hear them arguing. I didn’t care if the bills were paid. I just wanted to my crazy busy life back. It is easy to get busy living life that we forget to actually live. Every day feels like the same repeat from the ones before.
There is one simple way to start living again. Only one solution to this problem. Include God in your day. Even for 5 minutes. Give Him those minutes so that He can remind you HOW to live again, as He has reminded me. I would love to say that after the accident I gained a lasting knowledge of not taking my time for granted. But I am human, and no matter how hard are lessons in life are, sometimes God has to give us gentle reminders to not take the time He has given us for granted. He loves us enough to forgive us and welcome us back into His embrace.
Love and blessings,